New living or obsession????

I never thought the day would come when I wake in the middle of the night planning my day ahead s a baking....
sadly this has been the case for the past 2 weeks .... and I'm loving every second of it !!!
Just started writing my favourite recipes in a cook book with all the different recipes used and tweaked...
Sooooo satisfying..........

Just discovered an brilliant gardener Alys Fowler. Edible Garden... so excited ....I just want to get outside and start digging my vegetable and fruit patch .... beetroot and chard seeds and onion sets  bought. Compost heap coming  nicely ....
Roll on March when I can get sowing  my seeds and become fruit and vegetable self sufficient.....
Why does this make me feel so happy and contented???
This has totally taken oven my life ... changed my way of thinking, my attitude to people and life in general......
And just maybe take stock and revisit my past ...!!!!!

When all else fails ....focus on the moment be thankful for what you've got and make marmalade!!!!
Well .... where to start....

Firstly.... 1st month of my challenge is over... mission accomplished... have kept true to my word.. if it can be made make it ... every single thing has been cooked from scratch using basic store cupboard ingredients.. have not spent a 1penny on myself... no treats, snacks, coffees, gym membership gone, no paying for car parks and no random, spontaneous clothes, shoes or useless kitchen gadgets bought..... total spent this month £160.67😇

Secondly....

Should have been flying to artic on Monday...⛷⛸⛄️❄️
Should being the prerogative word....
Mum taken seriously ill and in hospital..😪 Not good .....holidays can be replaced mums can't 😢😢
To go away or not to go ... thats the question 😕???
If that's not bad enough....
 friendswho I was going with just admitted  ITU 😪😪😪😪 decision made... holiday cancelled...
Life and love is so precious....

When your world  is in turmoil ....At times like this ... sod the mindfulness the only sensible solution to do is.....drink vodka and make marmalade  🥃🍊🍞

And be grateful you have a like minded friend who encourages, understands and is as equally full of eccentricities ... pops round ... gives you a reality check....and put the world into perspective over coffee and biscuits... and planning our vegetable production....and is very happy when she is given a lovely box of oak chippings in preparation for her next project... a homemade smoker!!!!

Great things can come from chaos ... can't they ??

My challenge is now in full swing.... so far since 1st January I've cooked everything from scratch all from simple store cupboard ingredients.....
Oh .....my vegetable plot in the planning... ground is  like a big tried to dig it over but gave up .. but at least I know what I'm going to plant and what I need to do ... or at least my son who is student at RHS Wisley has told me what to do ....."you can't do that" or "that won't grow there" ... or even "you don't have a clue what you are doing ... do you ?" Bless him..... not !!!!!😡

It's not been easy. .... but 2wks on I'm slowly becoming to get more organised and having a real sense of achievement..... And the realisation of having a huge amount of admiration for my parents and grandparents  who had to do this every single day just to survive and not for pleasure....

 It always baffles me ... whenever I have watched any TVs cook or baking show their kitchens are always so clean tidy and organised.....
This sadly this is a skill I have yet to achieve..... as you can see... !!!!

I've never seen Mary Berry's or Nigella's kitchen looking quite like this...!!!!

But hay as the song goes "It's not where you start, it's where you finish "...
And ta daaaaa.... as if by magic a perfect yummy jar of Maple Cookies 🍪

100gms butter

100gms Demerara sugar 

2 TVs maple syrup 

175g plan flour 

Cream butter sugar and maple syrup until light and fluffy 

Mix in flour 

Kneed until forms a soft dough 

Turn on to a lightly floured board

Roll into a thick sausage shape 

Cut into between 10/12 discs

Bake gas 6, 200c or 400f 15-20 minutes or until golden brown 

Soooooooo simple .... but sooooo delicious 😋 

Why do we judge ourselves...

Doing this challenge in beginning to realise just how much easy it is to fall into a trap and to judge and beat yourself up trying to impress...... but why ????
To be honest its easy to spent far to long, longing to be like someone else ... comparing yourself  and trying to model yourself  on others and searching for contentment and happiness in completely the wrong places.....

It's only when you realised that true happiness start with us .... and who we really are and except we are all unique and all have different roles and expectations  in life .....
Some will test us, others will challenge.. but never give up on your dreams and never compromise your beliefs.....
Start to recognise when things need to change or not good enough ....
Just be strong enough to let go ....  don't be afraid to take risks.....and do you know what? .... it's ok ....
Don't be afraid to take risks.....

My house isn't big, impressive or tidy... most of the time it chaotic and cluttered.... but it's just the way I like it.... it's a home with life, laughter  and dogs...

and more importantly today very happy as now made 6 raspberry jams, three jars of pickled onions and six jars of Jumble Chutney

Just sooooooo happy 🙂🙂

To do lists, organisation, reflection and the realisation your 25 yr old son has had a good idea !!😂😂

Well our new approach is certainly a hot topic of conversation around the dinner table... even to the point were it was commented that making bread is pretty time consuming... but well worth the effort..
Then out of a slightly sarcastic, slightly showing interest comment it was suggested as I weigh out ingredients every day why didn't I do it all in advance.. one bag of ingredients ready to go just add water ......
Genius ..... and Ta daaaaaaa as if by magic .... two weeks of bread ready to go !!!!!

It's always the little things that make me soooooo happy !!!

One week has now passed since embarking on my new rules and do you know what ... its beginning not only to change my attitude but those who are around me ... all for the greater a good ...

Being able to appreciate what you actual have and the importance of those around you.
Taking time to understand what makes you happy and to understand that happiness always starts with you and the impact your behaviour and views impact on others.
And with a bit of planning, organisation and prioritising who and what is really important  contentment will flow......

Health doesn't always come from medicine..... it comes from peace of mind and contentment..
And to think this all started over a coffee and chat with a very dear and likeminded friend... she is a very special and extraordinarily exceptional person I've every had the privilege to know...we are so very alike but so different....
We've both strong because there's been no choice we've had to be ...
We are both smart because we have learned from many mistakes...
We are wise because we look, listenand learn from others..
And nothing can ever hurt us more than we've already experienced ....
And when we find ourselves doubting... or question ourselves or how much we can achieve... we have the courage and strength to remind each other how far we have already come ....
No that's a pretty special and remarkable friendship....

I've entered Narnia !!!

Cooking from scratch and writing a blog really  opens your eyes to what's actually happening in the world of consumers and the ridiculous choice we are brain washed to pop in our shopping trolley.
Today was a truly classic example of this.... I've no idea just how long this prodyhas been available... and if I new it wasn't 7th January it could have easily been mistaken today as 1st April.... April Fools Day........
Tomorrow I'll introduce you to my girls.... 5 beautiful speckled bantams... 🐓🐓
but today they let me down... every day they produce 5 of the most amazing eggs 🥚we've ever had... but no ... not today typical!!!
unfortunatly a vital  ingredient for my homemade pasta ....
As chance would have it I had to pop to the local supermarket...so decided to get some eggs while
there .... having never bought eggs  from there before .......I started scanning the vast variety of eggs ...I quote barn eggs, value eggs,  happy eggs, free range eggs, brown eggs, white eggs, small, medium, large extra large eggs, rare bread chicken eggs, duck eggs , quails eggs, dozen, half dozen, 15 and 4 eggs in a box.. which though crazy I understand.....
Until that is I came across a box of eggs that were nearly twice the price of  any box of of eggs on the shelf  .... consumerism marketing gone mad ..... was a display of "Eggs for Baking !!!!!" ..... Really ?
Am I being completely stupid .... but aren't all chicken eggs for baking ???

Having been baffled and somewhat stressed by all the different type of eggs available ... I decided to go to buy a dozen eggs from a local hen keeper... eggs were all shapes, sizes and colours... simple and perfect and a sensible price ....
Pasta duly made resulting in 3 yummy lasagna's made... as requested by number one son ...😇

A out of control or dangerous obsession !!!

I don't know whether to feel ashamed or embarrassed...
I was talking to a friend who has organised her wardrobe so she only ever has 36 items in use at any ony time ..... (bonkers or what ??) Her theory being it will take the stress out of your life and make you appreciate what you have ......really ???

With the new thinking, approach to life, love, de-clutter and back to basics her idea will fit perfectly into my new regime......or so I thought ......

This is one of my 3 wardrobes that to be honest more resembles a jumble sale.......
ok 36 items ... but which ones... ?

To my utterly horror and disgust in my 3 wardrobes I had 489 items of clothing (and if that's not bad enough that's just my winter clothes!!!!) 😧😧
Not to mention the 46 pairs of tights, 37 pairs of shoes and boots and 16 coats !!!!!😲😲
I had no idea more than half of it was even there.........😳😳
No wonder considering the sheer volume of stuff!!!
Deep breath taken wardrobes opened......
OMG !!!!!!!!!! Though I opened them every single.... today was different...today my habits needed to change and this was the wake up call I needed........

5 hrs, 6 bags heading for the charity shop, 3 bin liners of rubbish later my 3 wardrobes fitted into 1.....😇😇

Has this changed my life ....????  No
Will this change my life ......???? No
But do you know what .... I feel a weight has been lifted... in an odd way it's like admitting to an addiction.... I now need to work hard to make sure I never allow this never happens again..... greed, gluttony of a materialistic nature..... so ashamed.....😓😓
It can be hard to let go of what we think is important.... but often they are not...
Though we have no idea what tomorrow will bring.... never stop doing the little things that have a big impact... and stay true to your values, beliefs and those who are important to you.... self control and satisfaction is a powerful feeling which just makes you look up and smile ......😌